miChaeL

Love Letter for The One Who Got Away

2006-10-03T21:01:00.000-07:00

Hi! How are you?

You know what? I thought of you today. I don't know how, in the midst of my most hectic days, thoughts of you manage to squeeze their way into my mind. I don't know how you do it, considering that I haven't heard from you for four years now. Come to think of it, I didn't even realize until now that it has been four years. Four years, so many "relationships" since then, and yet, I still go back to you.

I know, it's not your fault we're not even friends anymore. After all, I was the one who changed numbers and didn't tell you. But please understand that, at that time, I thought it was the best way to go for both of us. I couldn't get the closure I wanted, because I knew you were just a text message away. Besides, back then, I was considering dating one of my closest friends seriously, and the only way I could possibly do that without going crazy was by cutting you off. I'm sorry for that.

I remember how we met. It was the most unconventional of ways. Thanks to our new modem, everything started with a simple, "ASL please," and ended with, "Can I have your number?" And though I regarded you then as nothing more than a group of words that, once in a while, grazed my computer monitor, you managed to jump right off the screen and change my life in a way that no one else was able to do.

I was the ultimate cynic before I met you, and I know I shouldn't be reminding you of this, because you know this so well. I was the person who was terrified to commit, terrified to lay his heart out on the open, terrified to gamble, for the weirdest and most confusing reasons.

Actually, now that I had so much time to think about it, my phobia back then can actually be summed up in four words: fear of getting hurt. I was so petrified at the thought of getting hurt, that I made people believe that I regarded them closely, but actually dealt with them at arms' length. I never let anyone get close enough to hurt me. I originally planned to do the same with you. Of course, you wouldn't allow me. That was one of the reasons why, I believe, I fell for you.

My love life, predictably, has a very sad and sorry cycle. Girl X falls for me. I fall for her. She tries to get close to me. I place her at a safe distance. She tries to get closer. I push her farther away. She gets tired of trying. I get tired of myself. We let go. I try bitterly to move on. I meet Girl Y, but I can't deal with her too well because I'm still moping about Girl X. And the cycle repeats itself almost automatically. I know that to be happy, you have to gamble, but I was never a good risk taker. Not until after you.

You were unlike any girl I've ever met before. Well, you were antipatika and suplada, even maldita! You were a spoiled brat who was used to getting what she wanted in an instant. Admittedly, I was a spoiled brat too. So we clashed. You hated all the things that I loved, and I loathed all the things that interested you. It was a match made in hell. But somehow, for some unknown reason, you stayed put.

I still don't know how you did it. Well, you did start by texting me once every week. Then you called me once a week. Then the calls and the texts became more frequent, until it got to a point that I was too busy texting you to pay any attention to my classes. I was spending 250 pesos a week for prepaid call cards, which I thought was fair enough, since you were spending the same amount in two days. Plus, my phone's batteries, which used to last all day, was drained in two hours max.

Not long after, somehow, someway, you managed to pull the rug off from under me. And before I even knew what was happening, I had been swept off my feet.

I remember just now, how the simplest of your gestures can make me so giddy. I remember how I was when I used to wait for your call. I used to shudder in anticipation of hearing your voice, literally speaking. And when you text me, it was like nothing else mattered---at all. My former room mates even used to tease me about it. They told me they can always tell when you send me a text message, since my face automatically lights up when I see your name appear on the screen.

I can vaguely remember the kilig feeling, but I know that it felt like my insides were turning to mush, my muscles were dissolving in electricity, and butterflies were hammering against my throat. I know, they don't sound too good in print, but they are, in actuality, the best feelings in the world.

I remember, still quite vividly, how the mere memory of your laugh was enough to make me smile, and how the mere sound of your voice had been enough to brighten up the darkest of my days. I remember looking forward to waking up every morning, because I knew it would be another day to communicate with you. Somehow, deep down, I knew I was falling for you. Somehow, however, I tried to bury them to the deepest recesses of my heart in the hope of vanquishing them forever.

I remember quite well how you told me, countless of times, how much you loved me. Unfortunately, I am also constantly reminded how cruel I was. Because every time you said you cared, I always found ways to avoid answering back. I'd tell you, "I like you as a person," or I'd say, "Mushy!" It got to the point, however, that I got tired of making up ways to avoid your question that I just told you, "You know I can't answer that right now." I'm so darn stupid! I would always have to stop from banging myself against the wall when I remember how badly I treated you. And, I know, no matter how many times I tell you I'm sorry, nothing would ever change anything.

You asked me once why I liked you. And I told you, "Because you make me happy." And you know what? You really did. You made me happy, in a way that I never thought I could ever be. I thank you for that. To tell you honestly, I don't remember how you look like. I can only remember certain aspects, like your braces, and your smile, and the feel of your hand on my back. But I do remember, so very well, the sound of your voice, your musical laughter, and sadly, even the distant and angry tone of your voice as we neared our goodbyes.

Maybe I'll never forget you. Maybe I'll never live down the fact that I had you---but I let you go. Was it that, or was it that I had you, but I did not work hard, did not fight hard enough to make you stay? I don't know. I don't want to think, and I don't believe that now is the time to rationalize about these things. Because the truth of the matter is, you're gone.

I hate living this life, knowing that I'll be thinking of these "what if's" for the rest of my life. I hate wishing that I could turn back time, so that I could correct all my mistakes, took all the risks I should have taken, and reached for your hand when you held it out for me. But it's too late for that, and it's not even plausible anyway.

I can't help but wonder, once in a while, how you're doing. I wonder if you're happy, or if some lucky creature is making you happy. I wonder if you still think of me, or even just remember that I exist. Because I think of you. Every single day, against my will, against my better judgment. I've fooled myself long enough to believe that you're not important in my life, not essential to my existence. I'm tired of my own masquerade. I just want to acknowledge the fact that yes, you have touched my life, even if I have acknowledged this too late.

A lot of people say, "There are many fishes in the sea." They weren't lying. I found that out myself after we separated ways. I dated like hell when you said goodbye, trying to numb myself from the pain, trying to ignore the emptiness that was left with the vacuum that you created in my life. But you know what? At the end of the day, it was still you. I couldn't find the special spark that I found in you, not even in better-looking or funnier or smarter or richer girls. They didn't have the magic that you had. They couldn't make my insides melt with a smile. They couldn't ease away all my pains with a call. Simply put, they were not you. Yes, they were many, but none of them was you.

I wish you could see me now. I believe I can safely say that I'm a much better person now than I was four years ago. I have a better perspective on life and love. I don't make up fights anymore just to make things interesting. I don't make up stories anymore to test how much people love me. I don't play mind games anymore. And when I feel something, I say it. I'm not afraid to love anymore. I'm not afraid to get hurt. I'm no longer afraid to take risks. I just wish you were here to see the new, different me. But then again, that could never happen, no matter how hard I try to wish for it.

You know what? Because of you, I promised myself a few things. I promised myself that I would never be afraid to fall or get hurt. I promised myself that I would take risks, seize opportunities, and conquer my fears. I promised myself that I would never settle for anything less than butterflies.

I used to believe that when you lose someone, you'll get a chance to meet them again. I used to believe in second chances. Losing you has taught me that there are no second chances in life. When you meet someone, and you are given that chance to change their lives, you have to take hold of that opportunity, because that is the only chance you've got. You have your chance, and that's it. You have to make the most out of it, and then let go when it's time. People come and go, and you have to live with it.

I constantly have to remind myself that you've done your part in my life. You taught me the lesson you came to teach, so you have to leave. I have to move on. I shouldn't wait. But I can't help it.

I miss you so much.

Message: maRtiR o PreTenDer!!!! (^_^)

2005-08-19T02:44:00.000-07:00

Message: Ano nmn ang pinagkaiba
ng "MARTIR",
sa pagiging great "PRETENDER"...

Kapag martir ka,
lahat tinatago mo..
gusto mo sya,
pero dahil sa dahilang di mo alam,
sa sarili mo nalng..
para lang umiwas sa mga isyu lalo na
kung
paborito ng bayan ang kwento ng buhay
mo..

Nakikita mo cia kasama ng iba,
habang ikawpasimple nlng na lumalayo
at
kunwari walang nakita..

Syempre,
bakit mo pa sila titingnan?..
kung ang nais mo talaga ay ikaw ang
nasa
ganong kalagayan...

Masakit kc,
mdalas imposible...
Pero angpagmamahal,
hindi matatawag na pagmamahal kung
hindi
ka
msasaktan.......

Minsan,
ang kung gaano pa cia kasakit,
mas lalo mo ciang minamahal...

Kahit niloloko ka na at pinapaasa,
ikaw isang martir kunwari isang bulag na
walang nakita...

Madalas hindi raw naaapektuhan,
pero pagdatingsa bahay,
kapag mag-isa na lng,
Ano ginagawa mo?

Ayan,
umiiyak habang wlang nakakakita..
walang nakakaalam...

when a girl CARES about a boy.......

2005-08-19T02:34:00.000-07:00

when a girl CARES about a boy.......

*she waits for his phone calls

*talks to him till the early morning

*hates to know when he's sad and wants to
make
him
feel better

*thinks about him all the time

*laughs at all his jokes

*talks to all her friends about him

*she misses him even when he's just gone
for a
minute

*tries to find the perfect outfit to wear when
shes gonna see him

*loves to be on the phone with him even if its
silent

*she talks about sports with him

*she makes fun of the sport he plays

*loves to hear him sing no matter how bad he
may
sound

*loves to stare into his eyes

*loves to lay her head on his shoulder

* and loves him sooo much that when he's
feelin
down she feels the same way

*When he calls u...your heart races and a
HUGE
grin comes up : D

love and friendship

2005-08-11T19:23:00.000-07:00

One day, love and friendship met. Love asked "Why do you exist if I already exist?" Friendship replied, "To put a smile where you leave tears..."

*Being happy doesn't mean everything is perfect. It just means you've decided to see beyond the imperfections. So don't say you are happy cause everything's alright... Be happy everything sucks... But you're doing just fine.. =)

***Kapag wala na ako, siguro hindi yun kawalan sa iyo. Hindi yun makakaapekto sa iyo. Pero gusto ko lang malaman mo na happy ako. Bakit? Kasi kahit minsan sa buhay ko, nakilala ko yung isang tulad mo..

***Sinabi ko sa sarili ko, lilimutin na kita. Pinilit ko, masakit. Ginawa ko, mahirap. Anong gagawin ko? Tumakbo? Magtago? Saan?? Maliit lang mundo ko... Umiikot pa sa iyo...

***Bakit ganon? Sabi mo dyan ka lang. Sabi mo hindi mo ako iiwan? Ako naman kinilig at naniwala, pero iniwan mo ako. Wala ka na! Pero thanks ha? At least nalaman ko, hanggang salita ka lang pala...

***A lot of people asked me why I care for you and I answered back with a quiet smile, not because I don't have an answer but because they would never ever understand..

***Why is it sometimes we don't realize that we are so stupid? We love someone so much, we care for them too much, we give them almost everything, but for all we know... iiwan din nila tayo sa huli..

***I admit it's true, it hurts, but what can I do?! You were able to move on, you left me behind but no matter what happens, I'll always remember you... Yes it's true... I'm still not over you...

*Always remember that if a person loved you once...even after a hundred years there will still be some of that love no matter how much that person denies it...

*Kunwari masaya ako. Kunwari okay lang ako. Kunwari wala akong problema. Kunwari nasa langit na ako. Okay lang ba kung isipin kong kunwari mahal mo din ako?.... Kunwari lang naman eh...

**Sometimes, we give more importance to the person who is not with us, putting aside the person who's always willing to stay always making you happy but never appreciated..

*It's hard to hold on to something that you know would never be yours in anyway you think of. You just have to learn to let go and face the fact that while good things never last, some don't even start...

*Life is so short to waste time for someone who's unworthy of your love. It's so sad when the right person won't be able to search for you cause you're too busy all your life making the wrong person right for you...

**Letting go of someone dear to you is hard but holding on to someone who doesnt feel the same is harder. Giving up doesnt mean youre weak, it only means youre strong enough to let go...

*In life, there's no such thing as wrong decision or wrong choice. You just have to learn to work things out to make things right..

*We never had time to have long talks. We never had the chance to have few laughs... But even though our worlds don't meet, always remember that you are someone special that I'll always keep..

***Whatever happens, know that I'm always by your side. Whenever you need me, know that I'm just right here. Through all this, I ask you only one thing... Never let anyone hurt you... Cause as long as I'm here, I do get hurt too..

u luv u mom!

2005-05-26T22:34:00.000-07:00

Message:

One day , a girl's mom died. She bathe in flowers petals so the girl made a BIG heart in the mom's room sayin i miss u.

Everyday a petal dissapears.

Soon it was the girls birthday.and wen she go takes a shower the flower petals were in the tub saying: honey, i miss u 2. i luv u but if u need me.

Ill always be in ur heart. I will never let go of u, tell ur dad i luv him.

MOM Post this in less then an hour or ur mom will die and never come back to u

ThE mEaNiNg Of Ur NaMe..

2005-05-26T22:30:00.000-07:00

ThE mEaNiNg Of Ur NaMe..

Message: Ok here is what you'll do....below is the alphabetwith descriptions next to them. Spell your name like I did by copying and pasting the letter and descriptions. Post it and let's see what you are made of!! ( just erase mine ok ? )

A - You can be very quiet when you havesomething on your mind.
B - You are always cautious when it comes tomeeting new people.
C - You definitely have a partier side in you, don'tbe shy to show it.
D - You have trouble trusting people.
E - You are a very exciting person.
F - Everyone loves you.
G - You have excellent ways of viewing people.
H - You are not judgemental.
I - You are always smiling and making otherssmile.
J - Jealously
K - You like to try new things.
L - Love is something you deeply believe in.
M - Success comes easily to you.
N - You like to work, but you always want a break.
O - You are very open-minded.
P - You are very friendly and understanding.
Q - You are a hypocrite.
R - You are a social butterfly.
S - You are very broad-minded.
T - You have an attitude, a big one.
U - You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
V - You have a very good physique and looks.
W - You like your privacy.
X - You never let people tell you what to do.
Y - You cause a lot of trouble.
Z - You're always fighting with someone

isang napakagandang storya....mga may shota o wala at ung may planong magkaron basahin nyu!!^^ =)

2005-02-11T23:37:00.000-08:00

*gabe. usapang lalake*
*sindi ng yosi*
*hithit*
*buga*

Musta na, pare? Ako, okay lang. Eto.
Nagmumuni-muni. Nag-iisip.
Minsan talaga may mga bagay na
hindi ko maintindihan. Ewan ko ba.

*hinga ng malalim*

Bakit ba ganun pare, ilang beses ko
na pinag-aralan pero lagi na lang
lumalabas na parang kahit `sang
anggulo mo tingnan, hindi nagiging
patas para sa mga lalake ang ilang
bagay pagdating sa pagmamahal.

*tingin sa stars*

Minsan naiisip ko, alam kaya ng mga
babae ang hirap ng lalake na
gumawa ng first move para magtapat
ng pagmamahal? E yung hirap
na dinadaanan sa panliligaw at
pagsuyo sa mahal nya? Ang feeling ng
masaktan pag nabasted? Malamang-
lamang siguro, hindi ano. Wala
naman yata silang alam sa mga
paghihirap naten e. Ang alam lang ata
nila e mamili, manakit, at magsaya.
Tingin mo?

*tingin sa malayo*

Lagi naman ganun. Una pa lang,
lalake na ang naghihirap. Hassle
saten ang panliligaw pero bago pa
yun, kung ano pang diskarte ang
gagawin naten para masabi naten sa
kanila na mahal natin sila. Alam
kaya nila yun? Mahirap magsabi na
mahal mo na yung babae, diba?
Tapos liligawan pa naten.
Patutunayan na mahal nga sila. Susuyuin
to-the-max. Maghahatid sa bahay,
tutulungan,
sasabayan,palalamunin,
pagtyatyagaan, lahat na. Kulang na lang e
pagsilbihan mo nang walang sahod.
At ano ang kapalit? Well, depende
sa trip nila. Oo tol, sa trip lang nila.
Wala silang pake kesehodang
mahal natin talaga sila. Basta ang
alam nila, pag di nila tayo trip,
isang malaking HINDE ang makukuha
naten, kahit umiyak pa tayo ng
dugo o lumuhod sa mga asing buu-
buo. Para lang silang namimili ng
damit na di man lang sinusukat bago
ayawan. Kaya kahit mahal na
mahal na mahal na mahal natin, sorry
tayo. Hindi nila alam kung mahal
mo sila. Kailangan mong maabot ang
kanilang mga standards o uuwi
ka lang na bad trip, iiling-iling, at
minsan, luhaan.

Wala tayong magagawa, marami
silang alibi. "Hindi pa `ko ready eh..",
"Sorry pero I think we should just be
friends..", "Ha? Uhhmm..
nagpapatawa ka ba?
Hahahaha.." "Better luck next time na lang
muna, okay lang?", "Give me a
decade. Pag-iisipan ko muna..", "Para
lang kitang kapatid e..", yaddah
yaddah. Isang malaking pagsasaklob
ng langit at lupa `yon para saten.

*kuha ng bote ng beer*
*lagok*
*lunok*

At hindi lang `yon tol. Sa pre-
relationship stage pa lang yon. Pag
sinagot na nila tayo, satin pa rin ang
hassle. Tayo daw ang mga
lalake kaya tayo ang hahawak ng
relasyon. Tayo ang aayos kung may
gulo; tayo ang dapat magpapakabait;
tayo ang magtatyaga; tayo
ang magiging devoted at faithful; tayo,
tayo tayo.

Sila? Ummm... Teka, isipin ko.

Ayun. Sila ang magsasabi kung anong
oras kayo dapat magmeet; sila
ang magtetext ng mga mushy at
kabalbalang texts; sila ang
magdedemand sayo ng kung anu-
ano; sila ang magbabawal; sila ang
magsasabi kung kelan ka dapat mag-
shave, kung kelan ka pwedeng
tumawag sa bahay nila, kung kelan
sila di dapat bad tripin dahil meron
sila, at kung kelan ka korni. Ewan.
Ganun ata talaga.

*kuha ng bote ng beer*
*lagok*
*lunok*

Hindi pa yun tapos pare, dahil dapat
tayo ang bahala kung ano ang
magiging takbo ng relasyon. Pag
maganda, edi okay. Pag may
problema, kasalanan naten. Haay
buhay. Minsan talaga kung tutuusin
sakit sila ng ulo. Kaya lang mahal
naten kaya di na natin iniintindi yun.

*hinga ng malalim*

Pero alam mo tol, feeling ko mas
sincere pa tayo magmahal sa kanila.
Alam mo yun, iba tayo magmahal e.
Hindi lang parang laru-laro lang.
Seryoso. At kung magmahal man tayo,
lubus-lubusan. Mas mature.
Hindi yung parang pambata lang gaya
nila na kesyo magseselos-selos,
iiyak-iyak, iina-inarte, dadradrama, at
kung anu-ano pa. Hindi lang
kababawan. Ka-mushyhan.
Kababaihan. Iba tayo pag nagmahal.

*hinga ng malalim*
*tingin sa malayo ulit*

At ito pa ang pinakamasaklap.

*singhot*

Ang ending ng relasyon. Sa mga
panahong `to, either sawa na sila,
hindi na tayo trip, may nahanap na
silang better saten, o kaya they
need f*cking space and time muna.
Bad trip no? Wala na naman
tayong choice. Sila ang masusunod.

At ano pa ang kasamang hassle don?
Syempre wasak na ang imahe
naten. Tayo ang lalabas na may
kasalanan. Na playboy. Na
nagpapaiyak.

*iiling*

Tayo siyempre ang mga antagonist at
sila yung mga bidang inaapi at
parang mga pusang iiyak-iyak. Ang
ending: mag-ooffer sila ng
"friendship" kuno matapos tayong
pagsawaan, lahat ng gifts naten
nasa kanila, sawi tayo sa pag-
ibig, "player" na ang image naten, at
higit sa lahat, mag-iisip kung papaano
ipagpapatuloy ang buhay.
Maiiwan tayong tulala, mag-iisip kung
saan nagkamali, mamomroblema
sa pag-aadjust sa pagiging single, at
di na naman makakatulog.

Haay buhay. Ang hirap maging lalake.
Lagi ka na lang naiiwan sa ere.
Ano? Hindi ka na nagsalita? In-love ka
no?

Ako, kamusta? Eto. Yoyosi-yosi.
Bubuntong-buntong hininga.
Titingin-tingin sa bituin. Mumuni-muni.
Lalagok-lagok ng alak.

Ang mga babae talaga, oo.

###############

Sa totoong buhay, hindi nagyoyosi
ang may-akda. Kasalukuyan
siyang may minamahal at naisulat
niya ito isang gabing wala siyang
magawa.

###############

Ang Mga Lalake Talaga, oo
(tugon kay redrope)
by xristel

Kaming mga babae na naman ang
nakita. Lalake, agrabyado. Lalake,
kinakawawa. Lalake, hindi
maintindihan.

Tungkol sa pagiging patas sa ngalan
ng pag-ibig, kami naman ang
laging talo, hindi kayo. Kami ang
laging lugi, kami ang laging
nawawalan at iniiwan.

Kapag ngumiti ka na ng konti, nag-
ayos ng konti pagkakamalan ka
nang malandi. Hindi
pangseryosohang relasyon. Marinig lang
nila
na
malakas kang magsalita, palengkera
ka na. T.O. kagad sa kanila iyon.
Mahilig silang tumingin sa mga
babaeng sexy manamit, kulang nalang
makita na kaluluwa. Pero kapag
babaeng seryosohin at gustong
ligawan dapat disente, dapat mala-
anghel ang mukha, dapat mukhang
inosente. Tapos kami pa raw ang
mahilig mamili? Parang baliktad yata?

Ok, ayan nanliligaw na si lalake.
Dapat pakipot ka para suyuin ka,
para habulin ka pa lalo. Kapag hindi
ka naman magpakipot "easy to
get" naman ang tingin sa iyo. Hindi ka
na seseryosohin. Sino bang
may sabing magpaalila kayo, di
naman namin hawak ang buhay niyo.
Natural lang na magtiis kayo, may
gusto kayo sa amin eh. Kapag
nakuha niyo na iyon wala na lahat ng
mga paghihirap niyo, babaliktad
na ang sitwasyon kami naman ang
mamromroblema. Para lang kayong
may gustong bilhin na bagay. Upang
mabili ito kailangan munang
magsakripisyo, magtipid, magtiis. Pag
nabili na at napagsawaan wala
na, balewala na. Diyan ka na sa tabi-
tabi. Tawagan nalang kita pag
trip ko o kaya'y pag may gusto akong
ipagawa sa iyo.

Ano pa ba? E di sinagot mo na diba.
Utang naloob pa natin yun.
Dahil naghirap daw sila sa panliligaw
dapat masuklian natin iyon ng
higit pa. Sa umpisa kailangan
malambing ka, maayos at laging
magsisilbi sa kanya. Ayaw daw nilang
humawak ng relasyon, pero
kapag ikaw naman ang nagmando,
aba, masasakal naman. Sasabihin
pa sa iyo "demanding" ka. Meron ka
pang maririnig na "I think we need
space" at kung anu-ano pang ek-ek.
Sino rin may sabing di dapat
kami magpakabait, maging devoted at
faithful? Kapag kami ang
sumaway niyang mga iyan, iba na ang
tingin sa amin. Malandi na kami,
haliparot, pakawala, makikay at kung
anu-ano pang mga bansag ang
itatawag sa amin. Kapag kayo
gumawa noon, ok lang. Lalake kayo eh,
macho kayo pag ginawa niyo iyon.
Kaya kami. Walang magawa.
Magpapakaburo at magpapakamadre
nalang. Kapag nagloko na kayo
ano pa bangmagagawa namin? Eh di
iiyak nalang. Wala namang ibang
magagawa eh.

Hindi kami nagdedemand!
Karapatan lang namin iyon. Karapatan
namin na lambingin niyo kami, icheck
at ipakita sa amin na mahal niyo
kami.

Hindi rin ibig sabihin na mas sincere
kayo sa amin. Seryoso rin naman
kami. At ang maturity wala yan sa
edad. Mas maaga nga kaming
magmature sa inyo. Ang isang 19 year
old na lalake eh, isip 15 pa
yun. It follows iyan sa lahat ng age
group. Mas mataas pa nga kung
minsan ang pagbawas ng level of
maturity. Kayo na ang mag-math.
Pati yung pag-iyak namin pinupuntirya
niyo. Kesyo drama daw. Diba
kapag umiyak ka nagbuhos ka ng
emosyon diyan. Ano tingin niyo sa
amin mga artista?!

Alam niyo iyon? Yun bang kulang
nalang ay lumuha ka na ng dugo,
pero hindi ka pa rin papansinin.
Sasabihan ka pang tigilan na ang
pagdradrama. Hindi nila kami
maintindihan kapag nagseselos kami.Bakit
naman kami magseselos kung wala
kaming nakikita? Mas iba kaming
magmahal. Mas masarap.

Kapag natapos na ang lambingan,
eh di siyempre iwanan blues na.
Kami pa raw ang nagsawa, kami pa
raw ang nagtritrip lang. Sino ba
ang lumalayas kapag may nakita nang
bago, sino ba ang mayabang,
sino ba ang nagmamalaki? Kami ba?
Kami ang walang choice. Kasi ang
babae pag sinabing "break na tayo"
lambingin lang iyan ng konti
balikan blues na iyan. Kapag ang
lalake ang umayaw, pucha, bahala
ka diyan. Kahit mag-tambling ka pa sa
harap niya. Wa-epek. Umiyak
ka ng bato. Wa- epek. Tsk, tsk, tsk.
Tapos sila pa raw ang kawawa.

Post-break up, mahal pa ng babae si
lalaki. Sasamantalahin ni lalaki.
Magpapagawa ng kung anu-ano.
Naaalala ka lang kapag may
kailangan sa iyo. Kapag pumangit ka
after the break up,
magpapasalamat sila na iniwan ka
nila. Kapag gumanda ka naman,
ipagkakalat nila sa buong
sangkatauhan na naging girlfriend ka niya.
Sala sa init sala sa lamig talaga.

Ano ba namang buhay to? Ang hirap
ding maging babae ano. Kala
nila laging sila na
lang. Lagi rin kaming naiiwan sa ere. In-love
din kami.

love or like?!?!

2005-01-25T16:45:00.000-08:00

n front of the person you like, your heart beats faster, But in front of the person you love, you get happy.

In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring. But in front of the person you like, Winter is just beautiful winter.

If you look into the eyes of the one you like, you blush. But if you look into the eyes of the one you love, you smile.

In front of the person you like,you can't say everything on your mind. But in front of the person you love, you can.

In front of the person you like, you tend to get shy. But in front of the person you love, you can show your own self.

You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you like. But you can always smile into the eyes of the one you love.

But when the one you like is crying, you end up comforting. When the one you love is crying, you cry with them.

The feeling of like starts from the ear. But the feeling of love starts from the eye. So if you stop liking a person you used to like, all you need to do is cover your ears.

But if you try to close your eyes, love turns into a drop of tear andremains in your heart forever ...-----(awwww....) now that's what i call a LINE!

YOU ARE IN LOVE!!!!!!!!!!

2005-01-25T01:20:00.000-08:00

When you are together with that special someone, you pretend to ignore that person.

But when that special someone is not around, you might look around to find them.

At that moment, you are in love.

Although there is someone else who always makes you laugh, your eyes and attention might go only to that special someone.

Then, you are in love.

Although that special someone was supposed to have called you long back, to let you know of their safe arrival, your phone is quiet.

You are desperately waiting for the call!

At that moment, you are in love.

If you are much more excited for one short e-mail from that special someone than other many long e-mails, you are in love.

When you find yourself as one who cannot erase all the messages in your answering machine because of one message from that special someone, you are in love.

When you get a couple of free movie tickets, you would not hesitate to think of that special someone.

Then, you are in love.

You keep telling yourself, "that special someone is just a friend", but you realize that you cannot avoid that person's special attraction.

At that moment, you are in love.

While you are reading this page, if someone appears in your mind, then you are in love with that person.

[= game oF love!!!=]

2004-11-27T13:39:00.000-08:00

Daniel and Jasmine are sitting alone in
the park one night....

Daniel: I guess we are the left overs in this
world

Jasmine: I think so...All of my friends have
boyfriends and we are only the 2 persons left in
this world with out any special person in our
life

Daniel: Yup I don't know what to do

Jasmine: I know! We'll play a game

Daniel: What game?

Jasmine: i'll be your girl friend for 30 days
and
you
will be my boy friend

Daniel: That's a great plan in fact i don't have
nothing to do much this following weeks...

DAY 1:

They watch their first movie and they both
touched
in a romantic film

DAY 4:

They went to the beach and have a picnic...
Daniel
and Jasmine have their quality time together

DAY 12:

Daniel invited Jasmine to a circus and they ride
on a Horror House....Jasmine was scared and
she touched Daniel's hand but she touched
someone else's hand and they both laughed...

DAY 15:

They saw a fortune teller down the road and
they
asked for their future advice and the fortune
teller
said: "My darling, Please don't waste the time of
your life...SPend the rest of your time together
happily" Then tears flow out from the teller's
eyes

DAY 20:

Jasmine invited Daniel to go to the hill and they
saw a meteor...Jasmine mumbled something

DAY 28:

They sat on the bus and because of a bumby
road
Jasmine gave her first kiss to Daniel by
accident

DAY 29:

11:37pm

Jasmine and Daniel sat in the park where they
first decided to play this game...

Daniel: I'm tired Jasmine...Do you want any
drinks? I'll buy you one.. I'll just go down the
road

Jasmine: Apple Juice that's all

Daniel: Wait for me....

20mins later... a stranger approached Jasmine

Stranger: Are you a friend of Daniel?

Jasmine: Why yes? What happened?

Stranger: A reckless drunken driver ran over
daniel and he is critical in the hospital

11:57pm

The doctor went out of the emergency room and
he handed out an apple juice and a letter

Doctor: We found this in daniel's pocket

Jasmine reads the letter and it says:

Jasmine, This past few days, i realized you are
a
really cute girl and i am really falling for
you..
Your
cherish smile your everything when we played
this
game..... Before this game would end...I would
like you to be my girl friend for the rest of my
life....
I love you Jasmine....

Jasmine crumples the paper and shouted:

"Daniel ! i don't want you to die... I love
you...Remember that night when we saw a
meteor, I mumbled something... I mumbled that I
wish we would be together forever and never
end
this game. Please don't leave me Daniel.... I
love
you! You cannot do this to me!"

Then the clock strikes 12

Daniel's heart stop pumping

THEN IT WAS THE 30TH DAY

*************************************************
*****
*************************************************
*****
*************************************************
*****

Always love your loved ones and show them
how
you feel before it is too late...You will never
know
when they will be gone from your embrace...If
you
were given a time to bestow petals of
everlasting
compassion and love to your loved ones?
Today
is the day....Love them while they are still
here...

ang punO't duLo ng pag-ibig!!!^_^

2004-11-13T13:02:00.000-08:00

Ang Puno't Dulo ng Pag-ibig

Nakakatawa talaga ang love.

Isa siyang napakalaking oxymoron.

Lahat ng pwede mong masabi sa kanya, baliktarin mo at totoo pa rin.

Ang labo di ba?

Pero ang linaw.

Masaya magmahal. Malungkot magmahal.

Di mo naiintindihan pero naiintindihan mo.

Walang rason. Maraming rason.

Di mo na kaya, pero kaya mo pa rin.

Masakit magmahal. Pero okey lang.

Ano ba talaga?!

May kaibigan ako, sabi niya dati "Love is only for stupid people."

Nakakatawa kasi cum laude ang standing niya,

pero dumating ang panahon, na-in-love din ang hunghang. A

t ayun, tanga na siya ngayon.

Lahat kasi ng nahahawakan ng love nagiging oxymoron din.

O kaya paminsan, nagiging moron lang.

Hindi lang kasi basta baliktaran ang pag-ibig.

Lahat ng bagay nababaligtad din niya.

Lahat ng malalakas na tao, humihina.

Ang mayayabang, nagpapakumbaba.

Ang mga walang pakialam, nagiging Mother Teresa.

Ang mga henyo, nauubusan ng sagot.

Ang malulungkot, sumasaya.

Ang matitigas, lumalambot.

Nakakatawa talaga.

Lalo na kapag dumadating siya sa mga taong ayaw na talaga magmahal.

Napansin ko nga eh.

Parang kung gusto mo lang ma-in-love ulit, sabihin mo lang ang magic words na "Ayoko na ma-in love!"

Biglang wacha! Ayan na siya.

Nang-aasar.Magpapaasar ka naman.

Di ba nakakatawa rin na pagdating sa problema ng ibang tao, ang galing-galing mo?!

Pero kapag problema mo na ‘yung pinag-uusapan parang nawawalan ng saysay lahat ng ipinayo mo

dun sa namo-mroblemang tao?

Naiisip mong wala namang mali dun sa mga sinabi mo.

Pero bakit parang wala ring tama?

Bali-baliktad din ang nasasabi

ng mga taong tinamaan ng madugong pana ng pag-ibig.

“Ngayon ko lang nalaman ganito pala, sabi ko na eh!”

“Ang sarap mabuhay. Pwede na ako mamatay, as in now na!”

At hindi lang 'yon.

Ang sarap din pagtawanan ng mga taong

alam naman nilang masasaktan lang sila eh

magpapatihulog pa rin sa bangin ng pag-ibig.

Tapos kapag luray-luray na yung puso nila,

syempre hindi sila yung may kasalanan.

“Siya! Bakit niya ako sinaktan?”

May kasama pang pagsuntok sa pader yon, at pagbagsak ng pinto.

Hayop talaga.

Mauubos ang buong magdamag ko kakasabi

ng mga bagay na nakakatawa kapag pag-ibig na ang pinag-usapan.

Ang daming beses ko na kasi siya nakasalubong

kaya masasabi ko nang

eksperto na ako.

Pero wala pa rin akong alam.

Pero ang pinakanakakatawa sa lahat

ay ang katotohanang kapag gusto magpatawa ng pag-ibig,

ipusta na mo na lahat ng ari-arian mo

dahil siguradong ikaw ang punchline.

Nakakatawa ano?

Nakakaiyak.

Hay life…--

mga taong nanliligaw!!!=]

2004-11-13T12:38:00.000-08:00

mga taong nanliligaw, nagbabalak manligaw, nililigawan, naliligaw, nag-iintay maligawan at nagbabalak lumagay sa magulo.......... ang love ay hindi minamadali... hindi pinipilit.. at lalong hindi kina-career...aray ko unang-una... PAANO MO BA NASABING MAHAL MO NA SIYA... dahil ba natutuwa ka sa kanya... o kaya naman naaaliw ka... naswee-sweetan ka ba ng sobra sa kanya... kinikilig ka ba pag nakikita mo siya... at nahi-high kapag naririnig mo na ang boses niya... eh teka muna... baka naman infatuated ka lang.... o kaya naman kagaya nga ng sagot mo... BAKA naaaliw ka lang... dahil kakaiba siya... may spark na hindi mo maintindihan... tsk!!!... ang saklap nyan!... pangalawa... GAANO MO NA BA SIYA KAKILALA... madali ba siyang mapikon... pano ba siya mabadtrip... madali bang mahalata na may topak siya... ano bang suot niya pag nasa bahay siya... shorts ba o pantalon... nakasando ba siya o naka-t-shirt lang... matagal ba siyang maligo.... kumakain ba siya ng vegetables... tamad ba siya... mas gusto ba niyang manood ng tv kaysa magbasa ng libro... nagpe-play station ba siya... tatlo ba ang pamangkin niyang lalaki... makukulit ba yung mga kamag-anak niya... green ba ang kulay ng gate ng bahay nila... sa village ba siya nakatira... may sakayan ba ng jeep na malapit sa kanila... nagsisimba ba siya linggo-linggo... kasama ba yung pamilya niya... at nagdadasal ba siya bago matulog... in short... alam mo na nga ba... ang mga bagay-bagay... ang mga simpleng bagay tungkol sa kanya... na nagdedetermine ng sarili niya... as in kung sino ba talaga SIYA... pangatlo... KAYA MO BA SIYANG TANGGAPIN... as in TANGGAPIN ng buong-buo... sa lahat ng trip niya sa buhay... sa lahat ng katopakan niya... sa lahat ng pag-iinarte at pag-dadrama niya... sa lahat ng kasalanang nagawa, ginawa, at gagawin pa lang niya... sa lahat ng naiisip niya... sa lahat ng sasabihin niya... sa kilos niya... sa pananamit pa pala niya... sa pagsasalita... sa pananaw niya sa buhay... sa pagtrato niya sa tao... sa lifestyle niya... sa uri ng pamilyang meron siya... sa uri ng kaibigang kasa-kasama niya... sa style niya pagdating sa love... sa kasweetan niyang natural... sa paglalambing niya... sa tawa niyang pagkalakas-lakas... sa manners niya... sa bisyo niya kung meron man... sa mga pang-aasar niya sayo... sa style niya pagdating sa pagsolve ng problema... sa problemang maaari ka ring masama... pang-apat... KAYA MO BANG MAGING TOTOO... kaya mo bang makita yung sarili mo... na kasama pa rin siya ha... sa isang sitwasyong pag naisip mo eh... mapapaiyak ka na lang sa sakit... nang dahil din sa kanya... kaya mo bang mag mukhang tanga... as in umiyak ng dahil sa kababawan... ibuhos ang mga nararamdaman mo... kahit na puro kababawan nga lang naman... as in kahit sa harapan niya... kaya mo bang maging barubal pag kasama mo siya... yung tipo bang wala ka ng pakielam... mawala man ang manners mo... na wala ka naman talaga... in short... KAYA MO BANG MAGING IKAW KAPAG KASAMA MO NA SIYA... yung tipong hindi ka nahihiyang ipakita kung sino ka talaga... dahil alam mong... HINDI MO LANG SIYA TANGGAP... TANGGAP KA RIN NIYA... BUONG-BUO RIN... MGA TAO!!!... tama na kasi ang trip... tama na ang pagmamadali... oo masarap ngang mainvolve sa isang tao... pero diba mas masarap yun... LALO NA KUNG ALAM MONG TOTOO YUNG NARARAMDAMAN MO.......

something to think about...=]

2004-11-12T20:47:00.000-08:00

Message:

Message: this will make your tears fall. . *-* There was once a guy who suffered from cancer... A cancer that can't be treated. He was 18 years old and he could die anytime. All his life, he was stuck in his house being taken cared by his mother. He never went outside but he was sick of staying home and wanted to go out for once. So he asked his mother and she gave him permission. He walked down his block and found a lot of stores. He passed a CD store and looked through the front door for a second as he walked. He stopped and went back to look into the store. He saw a young girl about his age and he knew it was love at first sight. He opened the door and walked in, not looking at anything else but her. He walked closer and closer until he was finally at the front desk where she sat. She looked up and asked "Can I help you?" She smiled and he thought it was the most beautiful smile he has ever seen before and wanted to kiss her right there. He said "Uh... Yeah... Umm... I would like to buy a CD." He picked one out and gave her money for it. "Would you like me to wrap it for you?" she asked, smiling her cute smile again. He nodded and she went to the back. She came back with the wrapped CD and gave it to him. He took it and walked out of the store. He went home and from then on, he went to that store everyday and bought a CD, and she wrapped it for him. He took the CD home and put it in his closet. He was still too shy to ask her out and he really wanted to but he couldn't. His mother found out about this and told him to just ask her. So the next day, he took all his courage and went to the store. He bought a CD like he did everyday and once again she went to the back of the store and came back with it wrapped. He took it and when she wasn't looking, he left his phone number on the desk and ran out... !!!RRRRRING!!! The mother picked up the phone and said, "Hello?" It was the girl!!! She asked for the boy and the mother started to cry and said, "You don't know? He passed away yesterday... " The line was quiet except for the cries of the boy's mother. Later in the day. The mother went into the boy's room because she wanted to remember him. She thought she would start by looking at his clothes. So she opened the closet. She was face to face with piles and piles and piles of unopened CDs. She was surprised to find all those CDs and she picked one up and sat down on the bed and she started to open one. Inside, there was a CD and as she took it out of the wrapper, out fell a piece of paper. The mother picked it up and started to read it. It said: Hi... I think U R really cute. Do u wanna go out with me? Love,Jacelyn The mother opened another CD... Again there was a piece of paper. It said: Hi... I think U R really cute. Do u wanna go out with me? Love, Jacelyn Love is... when you've had a huge fight but then decide to put aside your egos, hold hands and say, "I Love You" You Have 2 Options 1) Post this page in a new bulletin board 2) Don't post it and act like it didn't touch you. I hope You Choose 1 coz I did

Message: : > Message: > cellphone

2004-11-12T20:38:00.000-08:00

o,buksan nio na plgi mga cel nio...u'll never know!

Message: : > Message: >

> >oN d 1st dAy....
> > she seNt a msg 2 d guy...
> > " mis u na! wat tym k b pu2Nta?
> > she's w8ting 4 d reply...
> > but no 0ne ans...

> > > > > > 2nd msg...
> > "i text u kninang morning
> > bat di k ng reply"...
> > wat tym k bpu2nta?!
> > i need ur ans asap...
> > > > but she w8 4 5 hours la pring sgot..
> > Sa sobrang asr
> > ini-off nya ang CP nya...
> > nd say...
> > "i will not open this cell unless
> > pu2nta xa d2...
> > after few minutes nk2log n rin xa....

> > > > 2ND DAY...
> > > > she's still w8ting 4 her boyfrend..
> > mg pa2ring s fone tp0s ba2..
> > she told herself...
> > "does he luv me p kya?!"
> > "he knows nmn pg ng pa2ring akoh...
> > she's expcting that
> > d b0y will call him bck...
> > untill its evening no one comes,
> > no one calls...
> > her CP still off..

> > > > 3RD DAY...
> > > > luk his hobby...
> > she's still w8ting; ng pa2ring
> > after d few hours d fone rung...
> > she ans it quickly...
> > "hello"
> > > >on d 2nd line..
> > "hon...ilove u very much..
> > > bglng ng busy..
> > > glit n glit na umupo sa s0fa..
> > at nano0d ng t.v...
> >> >after a few mins...
> > my kum2k...
> > she stnd quickly...nd open d do0r...
> > she surprised when she saw her bf
> > stndung on d do0r...
> > > w/ go0d look...
> > > white long sleeves... nd
> > > white pans...
> > d guy says...
> > "come w/ me... yaAn moh
> > kng bumwi sau"
> > she ans...
> > "w8 ill juz.....
> > "come lets go...(--------------)"

> > > > > > > >after few mins. their on d plce...
> > sa houz ng guy...
> > knbahan xa....
> > she's asking....
> > > >>>wat happened?...
> > bat ang dming tao...at my
> > red light....
> > wats that...?!(she sotp 4 a while)
> > "ur mom"

> > > >wlng sg0t..d guy was 0nly
> > lo0king at her face...
> > > >bglng may 2mwg s knya...
> > She's shock when she saw guy's mom
> > crying and embraced her...
> > "c0me w/ me!
> > > >sa buong pg aaklng mnksunod
> > sa knya
> > ang guy....
> > on d do0r....she's shock when
> > she saw adead person infr0nt
> > of her.....
> > she lo0ks at his back...
> > but d guy is g0ne.....
> > > >where it goes la nmn xang
> > nkita dumAan infr0nt of her...
> > d mother said...
> > "bat ngaun k lng pumunta
> > khp0n p koh ng te2xt sau!
> > per0 nk-off ang phone moh...

> > > > she open her CP nd sit 4 a while...
> > nd read d msg...
> > there are 5 unread msgs...
> > > > > >she open d 1st msg..
> > "hija, my s0n is now 50/50>
> c0me here he needs u...

> >> >2nd msg...
> > "pls c0me hir or reply....i need it now..."

> > > > > >3rd msg...
> > "my s0n is on comatose....
> > can u visit him now
> > your his strength"...

> > > > > >> >4th msg...
> > "hija my s0n is dead"
> > and then she cried nd think knowing..
> > that her love is now gone in her lyf...
> > >naicp nya ung ngyri.....
> > she's with d guy
> > on the past few hours....
> > but she think,
> > nd think, nd think...
> > hanggang dumting
> > ang knyng pag iicp
> > sa guy....
> > "c0me lets go"....
> > "dalawin moh nmn ako..

> > > khit sa huling araw ng lamay koh...!
> > > > > > pls re:post this story....
> > > > b coz this story gives u idea that..
> > d person u love....will be gone anytym..

post nyo rin.. your love one will be gone anytym!=(

ako toh...üüü

2004-11-09T17:30:00.000-08:00

hi!!!=]

alam nyo ako ay mayroing friendster account... add nyO akoh.. micmicute@yahoo.com meron din akong yahoo messenger add nyO rin akO micmicute@yahoo.com...

salamat ha!=]